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Posted by Tai Kagamine Kokoro Veneziano Vargas on January 21, 2014 at 1:25 PM Comments comments (38)

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Why am I so annoyed with everything ? Everyone. . . I don't even care for right now. Solely everything I have has been focused on other things. I'm not sleeping, barely eating, losing myself. I'm shaking so much, I'm cold and lost. . . I want to find that warm light. Ignoring my daily lessons now, not taking in a single word from anyone. My cuts still hurt. Burning with every step I take, crying to me to scratch at them and dig them deeper. And my head hurts too. Even the ...

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Posted by Tai Kagamine Kokoro Veneziano Vargas on January 21, 2014 at 1:00 PM Comments comments (0)

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Another day of little to no work. Too much is on my mind not to focus. The pain from my cuts drowns my other thoughts, though some I can't seem to get out of my head. Longing and desire to say the unsaid, living to the limits with all this pain. Actually, having confidence but not able to say it aloud. What kind of thinking is that ? Ah . . . it hurts. The pain still lingers. Eight months ago. . . It's been that long. Turn the number sideways for the sign o...

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Posted by Tai Kagamine Kokoro Veneziano Vargas on December 13, 2013 at 1:05 PM Comments comments (0)

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I can't focus on a single one of my classes. My life has literally fallen to hell. He's trapped us like dogs in a cage and taken away everything from me. I've treated my friends coldy and hurt someone I care about. That person yesterday was not me it couldn't have been. . . I'm not that monster right ? The enemy has reached my brain again. It's eating away at me. I hate it. I wish I had someone to cry onto and pat my head and tell me it'll be okay. My health has...

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Posted by Tai Kagamine Kokoro Veneziano Vargas on November 18, 2013 at 8:15 PM Comments comments (0)

A Melody spills forth. I hate it and I love it all at the same time. When he talks to me like nothing happened and we're as close as before it all. I missed those days so much. You're starting to talk to me again. You said you'll be taking me on adventures and you even used the name " Sora. " Sora.. what am I to you now ? Am I Kairi or something else ? I'm afraid I don't know. But just keep talking to me. It makes me really happy. I'm still torn between you and him.. You're really good friend...

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Liking someone ?

Posted by Tai Kagamine Kokoro Veneziano Vargas on November 3, 2013 at 8:45 PM Comments comments (0)

The feeling of liking someone can be so cruel, especially when it's one of your best friends and truthfully, one of your ex's close ones. The one you said you still like ? You still do and yet you feel toward the other ? It's strange. But wait, you liked this person longer ? And you still hide your feelings ? You coward. Why don't you even try ? I wonder that. Why is it I can't come forth with these feelings. After what happened last night my thoughts are filled with you. Did you really say y...

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Unique ?

Posted by Tai Kagamine Kokoro Veneziano Vargas on October 31, 2013 at 9:55 PM Comments comments (0)

I'm nothing special really. The world could do without me. Sure people would be sad, if I was gone, but they'd all move on with their lives eventually. I'm not saying I want to disappear... But would it be okay if I did ? I feel like there's nothing about me that is unique anymore.. Anyone could draw like me even better than me. Anyone could render animation against a black background. Anyone could write stories like I do. Anyone can do all that I do. I'm not needed. The world would be fine w...

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Posted by Tai Kagamine Kokoro Veneziano Vargas on October 29, 2013 at 8:45 PM Comments comments (0)

I am such a coward, afraid of my own heart's emotions. Why is it so hard to tell someone something ? I know what must be done. Hey, would you atleast show a little concern ? Look at me ! I have something to tell you. I want to say it. I want for your ears to hear it. To hear how sorry I am. Even if it doesn't change a thing you still listen to people right ? If you comment something sad, I'm already in tears. So please don't reply. Let me just spill these words to you, and listen to them will...

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A day of tears.

Posted by Tai Kagamine Kokoro Veneziano Vargas on October 17, 2013 at 9:50 PM Comments comments (0)


A guilty conscience is one's greatest enemy. A liar's heart is one's lowest fault. Both live within this corrupted girl. Myself. This monster I am, killing off another being yet again. I came to the conclusion finally. I can not love. I will never love again. I want to be alone. I want to stop hurting people. It is the only option I have now. To stray away. Yes, I have lost my heart. I am truly a heartless. All I will ever be. Because I am not moved on....

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